Who's will ?

And i am submitting my will, WILL which i feel now never existed.Is this surrender or a step closer to wisdom???
I remember all those sprints and marathons where my will wasn't entertained,though they say they have their own logics but what if i was forced to follow their logics in spite of my will.....or hurdles were insurmountable.

Drowned by deep thoughts and sessions of soliloquy....i am born again with promise to nature "will never try any hindrance in its course" and accept each and every sensation of joy and sorrow with same reverence....